It has been a long week. Yesterday I spun my wheels all day long at work. I got a little bit accomplished but not nearly as much as I needed to. I am just going to be persistent and keep working on my skills. I didn't spend any money which was good. I was too busy spinning my wheels. This also was good on the food front at least until about 9 last night when I had a chip attack and ate a half of a bag of Munchos. Yep half a bag. All that salt - ug. It tasted so good at the time. But now I am sorry I ate them. I should just throw them away. I debate with myself at the grocery store over whether I should buy things or not. Since we have guests coming tonight, I wanted to have snacks on hand. So I also made cookies (bwah bwa bwaaaaaaah)! Maybe I will throw all the junk food out after they leave.
I am remembering that I am a highly competitive person. I get really stressed out if I can't do as well as others at work or have some edge. I wish I could feel competitive on the food / weight loss front. Then maybe I could lose weight! Something to think about I guess. Why am I sometimes more competitive in some areas but not others? Maybe that is the key to overcoming my three challenges (food, money, work). Not sure how to balance them. I will think about it more.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Tired
I have been in turbo mode all day. And I am still not sleeping. :( I am tired of annoying people and annoying bosses. I am tired of not sleeping. Mostly though I am just tired.
Work is crazy busy. Which is better than not being busy at all. Work is annoying because it's almost 79 degrees at my desk, I sit right across from a kitchen area and at the end of a hall so I hear noisy people all day. Despite this, I feel like I am making a little bit or progress at work. I just put on my headphones and block everyone else out. It's like taking baby steps when it comes to learning how to write code but as long as I take a step or two a day, I am happy.
The food control has been going alright too. There are good days and bad and right now I am aiming for more good days and it's working. I have been walking and exercising a lot too.
I have been doing OK on spending as well. I haven't bought anything online for a week or so. Trust me, this is progress!
OK, I am cooking dinner and trying to get a few more tasks done tonight before bed. Signing off....
Work is crazy busy. Which is better than not being busy at all. Work is annoying because it's almost 79 degrees at my desk, I sit right across from a kitchen area and at the end of a hall so I hear noisy people all day. Despite this, I feel like I am making a little bit or progress at work. I just put on my headphones and block everyone else out. It's like taking baby steps when it comes to learning how to write code but as long as I take a step or two a day, I am happy.
The food control has been going alright too. There are good days and bad and right now I am aiming for more good days and it's working. I have been walking and exercising a lot too.
I have been doing OK on spending as well. I haven't bought anything online for a week or so. Trust me, this is progress!
OK, I am cooking dinner and trying to get a few more tasks done tonight before bed. Signing off....
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Another early day
My husband asked me a few days ago what my blog was going to be about. I told him I didn't really know. Maybe a little of this and a little of that. I have thought about it a little bit more now. I think I want to focus on the three areas I went over on my last blog. I want to feel like I am in control of certain areas of my life: food, work, money. So guess I will just try to touch on those during most of my blogs. Maybe it will help me regain control.
Also today I want to talk about words that are used too much in daily language such as "like", "basically" and "actually". I am trying to eleminate throwing these words in a filler when I talk to people. I think that they are used too much and I can't beleive how hard it is to eliminate the word "like" so that is my first target. I have been doing better there but I still have room for improvement.
So on to my three areas. It should be pretty easy to go over today since I have been so good at some of them. I haven't spent any money the last few days. Usually I go spend all my money right after payday but this month so far I have been good. OK I know it is only the 4th. But I got paid last Friday and all I have bought is groceries and gas. Woohoo for me! Second is work. I have been throwing myself into learning automation and coding so that I can look like I am making progress. I have spend at least a third of my day studying and writing tools to help automate testing at work. I am going to try to keep this going. And last but not least, my food problems. I have been fairly even the last few days. I could do better though. Today I am going to try to exercise. It's a small goal but let's hope I can keep it. Wish me luck!
Also today I want to talk about words that are used too much in daily language such as "like", "basically" and "actually". I am trying to eleminate throwing these words in a filler when I talk to people. I think that they are used too much and I can't beleive how hard it is to eliminate the word "like" so that is my first target. I have been doing better there but I still have room for improvement.
So on to my three areas. It should be pretty easy to go over today since I have been so good at some of them. I haven't spent any money the last few days. Usually I go spend all my money right after payday but this month so far I have been good. OK I know it is only the 4th. But I got paid last Friday and all I have bought is groceries and gas. Woohoo for me! Second is work. I have been throwing myself into learning automation and coding so that I can look like I am making progress. I have spend at least a third of my day studying and writing tools to help automate testing at work. I am going to try to keep this going. And last but not least, my food problems. I have been fairly even the last few days. I could do better though. Today I am going to try to exercise. It's a small goal but let's hope I can keep it. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Good morning?
Three areas for improvement.
I can't sleep this morning. I am stressed about work, money, life. I wish I could put my stress in a box and close it up and throw if off a cliff. I feel like I have become a dinosaur at work because I haven't kept up on technology like I should have. Everyone around me is spending all day working on automating our test procedures rather than actually testing. Most of the larger software companies have already started moving that direction. Now the smaller company I work for is following suit. I think some automation is a good thing. But it gets to the point where there is no more testing and the people who used to be testers become second rate software developers hacking together chunks of automation that needs to be main tainted like an unruly child. I have thought of several ways of dealing with this. One is to go with the group and try to improve my automation skills and just go with the flow and then at some point, go work for a larger company where maybe it's slightly less second rate. By second idea is to change career paths but I really am not too sure what I want to to. I just want to find a way to sleep again. Not sure what to do... Other than to keep learning and growing.
I also feel behind financially. Our house is underwater, I owe money on a car and credit cards. In my mind, I have a 3 year plan to get out of credit card debt. But so far I haven't proven to myself that I can take charge. As for the house, I am hoping the market will turn around. Or that it will level out so that we can get caught up and at least owe what it's worth.
The third area I need to work on is my weight. I am currently about 15 lbs overweight. I am always on a diet but somehow I end up weighing the same. I have pretty much been the same weight for about two years. I look at that as a positive in some ways because at least I haven't gained. But I need to find a way to gain control.
Mostly I guess I just need to take control of my life in all areas. It all ties together. I am hoping to find control.
I can't sleep this morning. I am stressed about work, money, life. I wish I could put my stress in a box and close it up and throw if off a cliff. I feel like I have become a dinosaur at work because I haven't kept up on technology like I should have. Everyone around me is spending all day working on automating our test procedures rather than actually testing. Most of the larger software companies have already started moving that direction. Now the smaller company I work for is following suit. I think some automation is a good thing. But it gets to the point where there is no more testing and the people who used to be testers become second rate software developers hacking together chunks of automation that needs to be main tainted like an unruly child. I have thought of several ways of dealing with this. One is to go with the group and try to improve my automation skills and just go with the flow and then at some point, go work for a larger company where maybe it's slightly less second rate. By second idea is to change career paths but I really am not too sure what I want to to. I just want to find a way to sleep again. Not sure what to do... Other than to keep learning and growing.
I also feel behind financially. Our house is underwater, I owe money on a car and credit cards. In my mind, I have a 3 year plan to get out of credit card debt. But so far I haven't proven to myself that I can take charge. As for the house, I am hoping the market will turn around. Or that it will level out so that we can get caught up and at least owe what it's worth.
The third area I need to work on is my weight. I am currently about 15 lbs overweight. I am always on a diet but somehow I end up weighing the same. I have pretty much been the same weight for about two years. I look at that as a positive in some ways because at least I haven't gained. But I need to find a way to gain control.
Mostly I guess I just need to take control of my life in all areas. It all ties together. I am hoping to find control.
Monday, March 1, 2010
First Blog
I have been meaning to start blogging for awhile now but I just haven't gotten around to it. Maybe I will only blog once, maybe more. Only time will tell.
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